Call me the absent-minded professor or a procrastinator or a scatter brain or lazy or forgetful or undisciplined or unorganized or... I guess you get the point. My life in many ways has been defined as a life of being wired and careless at the same time. Surprisingly I am not really that interested in becoming more organized, less of a scatter brain or less forgetful. O.K. maybe I do desire to be a little less forgetful, I'll have to up my doses of Ginko Bolba or Ginka Balboa - whatever! But I do have a strong desire to become more disciplined.
In fact, there was a time that I had a very disciplined spiritual life and that has fallen by the wayside. I mean there are only 24 hours in the day and most of those hours are spent being a father & husband (translation: Taxi-cab; cook; lover; understander; listener; decoder; disciplinarian; tutor; entertainer; guider and like Bush - "The Decider!"), and a "professional" minister (translation: Secretary, pastor, media consultant, gopher, perfect christian, guru, sage, the great example, preacher, youth minister, search and rescue!). I find myself not being able to stick to routine or when I seem to be on a routine, my mind wanders to something else in the evolving circumstances of the day.
Call me crazy (everyone else does!) but I have decided to blog to bring me back to routine. I have decided to blog daily. now trust me, having said that, there might not be another post for three weeks! Because just as soon as I began my journey down this routine, my mind will wander off to something else. But "I gotta do something!"
My entrance into the blog culture will hopefully help me in two ways. One, I want to get on a routine that will call for me to be committed to something voluntarily. I don't have to blog so there will be a great temptation for me to just not do it, like exercise. Secondly, I need a place to mentally release, share and vent. I am very protective of my thoughts and feelings and although this is a risky place to express, "I gotta do something!"
I think what it all comes down to is that because my life has been defined as being wired, I feel so pressured to "do something" That's probably why I don't get many things done, because I'm trying to do so much. I'm busy! Jesus was busy too. So busy that he often took time to rest with God (See The Gospel of Luke 5:16). I was reminded when reading a friend's blog that sometimes, we just have to "BE STILL" I know I am "Be Still" challenged because I am so wired, but nonetheless, I feel called to rest and Be Still! What I will not do is conclude that closeness to God is defined by how much rest I get. Instead, I am determined to grow in the understanding that my activity or inactivity doesn't draw me close to Him. Instead it is His working to draw close to meet and He is willing to meet me in the quietness or the noise! So whether I am still or active, I desire more an awareness of his Presence!
Tonight's Menu: Longhorn's Steakhouse!
4 comments:
This is really cool! Love the name of your blog. I can really relate to the whole self-discipline thing, or lack thereof. Blog on dude!
Well can a sistah get an amen! First step is admitting. You're on your way brother-n-(the)law! LOL. This is great. I will b here looking for some wisdom daily too. Though more organized (LOL) I too am busy.....so need to be more grounded. Great Work. Hear me sing...God has smiled on you, He has set you free; God has smiled on you and He has set you free!
You rock brother! I am SO glad God has moved you to post this blog. I love it and can't wait to read this daily. Or....however much you post. =)The whole rest thing hits home as I too am a 'busy' person and by the time I can settle down..it's bedtime! I crave the time alone with my Fater and pray through reading this encouragement, I will get there.
Oops. Father. Need spell check!
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