Thursday, October 11, 2007

I'm Back (and Black)

You know, after you come out of a coma, I would suspect there is a lot of rehabilitation and therapy that is needed to completely recover. I've had neither after my blog coma. Nonetheless, here is my attempt again to give you a peek at my mind and my heart. It's a bit dangerous to get in my mind because there is so much (or maybe so little) in there. Thanks to everyone who actually visits this blog and constantly remind me that I haven't written in it! Way to make me feel guilty. Seriously, thank you.

I began this blog as a way to become more disciplined in my life. I just returned from the Zoe Worship and Leadership Conference in Nashville, Tn. I was reminded in many forms that one of the troubles I have in my life, my family and my ministry is my lack of discipline, rhythm and order. I so passionately desire to be more disciplined that it is driving me crazy to be so out of sync.

As such, I am beginning (restarting) a plan I had devised a while a go but didn't stick to it. O wrote down a list of goals and separated them into 4 categories. The four categories were: (1) personal goals (2) family goals (3) ministry goals and (4) business goals. Consequently, each set of goals has elements of discipline. Take for instance my personal goals listed below:
1. Daily Lectio or Bible reading & Prayer
2. Read One Book a week
3. Get my diabetes under control
4. Exercise daily
5. Eat Better
6. Write in Blog regularly (Yeah right!)
7. Be Honest

What a tough list for me. Given my busy and hectic schedule, how do I find time to do all this? I don't know! But, I need to do it. I have to find rhythm in my life. I want to model discipline and rhythm to my family and to my church. I desire to be authentic and honest in my calling (as husband, father and minister. And I need to be honest. In all four lists of goals, "being honest" is included. In order to be an effective man of God in my personal life in my family family, in my church and in my business, I have to be honest. Honest enough to say no when I want to say yes. Honest enough to set priorities. Honest enough to not to make excuses for my laziness.

Honest enough to lay bare and broken before God and to admit "I need You O GOD!"
Tonight's Menu: Chicken in Cream Sauce, Rice and Peas w/carrots